I've been trying to give myself a mental break over the past few days, and I think that will continue on into this week. I've been spending every waking (and sleeping, actually) moment with friends and family, trying to get in as much non-alone time as possible. Cooking lunch with my mom. Watching baseball with my dad. Spending time with my best friend before she goes back to Boston for the summer. Spending time with my oldest friend before she moves to Atlanta in a couple weeks. Spending time with another friend who I've unintentionally kept on the back burner for years while I've been busy; I realized that he is one of the most important people in my life, and I rarely make time for him. It's things like this that have been occupying me, and I'm sure it's because I'm realizing that I'm leaving Cleveland soon and that these are the people I love. And I don't want to be alone all the time anymore. So I'm constantly spending time with these people; having sleepovers on their floors, watching Planet Earth in our pajamas, eating breakfast for dinner at a [crappy-but-delicious] diner, shopping, laughing, laughing, laughing. And that's what it's all about, right?
I'll leave you with these images:
My parents' lake house is a couple hours south of here, and I relish my time there. I don't get to spend much of it down there, but when I do I have moments of pure bliss, like the ones you see above. The drive relaxes me; one hour on the highway, one hour on windy, hilly country roads. Then when I get there this is what I see. I was there with someone new in my life a couple weekends ago, and I remember looking at him at one point (actually, it was during a stop on the drive down) and saying, "I'm deliriously happy right now." Which is not a sentiment I often, or ever, express. But that's what I want out of the next couple weeks. Happiness. Family. Friends. Kitty snuggles. Hand-holding. Laughter. Joy.
To end, if anyone has any suggestions for GRADUATION NAILS I'd certainly appreciate them. Just leave them in the comments. I mean, that's if you actually READ this whole post, and if so...kudos. Edited to add: my graduation dress is lavender and the gown is black, if that helps with suggestions.
I miss you all. I'll be back soon.