this bottle has been very loved
My cuticles are insanely dry because I had just removed my Shellac manicure, which of course requires 100% acetone. So forgive me. Anyway, Blush Diamond is a light pink holo. It's a scattered holo that still manages to look linear in strong sunlight. It's gorgeous. The formula with this bottle was super thick because it's half empty. Next time I use it I'll thin it. Despite that I used two coats here and it covered just fine. No topcoat in these photos because I didn't want to dull the holo. After I took the pictures I applied NYC GCS.
Some of my fondest memories from the past year are from my grandma's 89th birthday party last year. My mom threw her a shindig down at the lake house. My dad's side of the family came, and some of my grandma's friends, plus my mom's brother and his wife and her parents. The party was on a Saturday, and Sam and I drove down to the lake that morning. When we got there I saw this.
She had themed her outfit to go with that little hat that her oldest son sent her one year. Tell me that's not the cutest thing you've ever seen. She was so excited when she found the beads to go with the hat. I remember that really well. I remember a lot of that day--actually, that week--so, so well.
That day was wonderful. It was the beginning of nice weather in Ohio and Easter was the next day. My grandma was so happy to be surrounded by people who loved her and she smiled all day. Sam and I ate so much cake that we actually had to take a nap after lunch (remember that, Sam?). I remember that day because at that time I felt so light. I had just finished my two-day comprehensive exam a couple days prior. I knew I had gotten into PhD programs. The semester was almost over. I remember that entire week because the previous Saturday night I met Ben for the first time. Then the night before the party, a Friday, I went over to his place for the first time and we started to watch Six Feet Under. But I was still dating someone else. I remember that on the two-hour drive down to the lake I talked to Sam about how I was reasonably sure that I wanted to be with Ben instead. It was the first step in leaving a relationship that had been absolutely horrible for me. It was the first step in building something with Ben that we intend to work on for the rest of our lives. And all of those feelings of lightheartedness and joyful anticipation are somehow wrapped up in my grandma's birthday.
Sam and I sat on the dock that night for hours and watched the sunset. When we went inside my grandma was there, still happy, and she and my mom asked us, "What were you girls talking about down there for so long?" And I don't remember. I just remember the feeling. I remember pulling my trench coat tight around me because it was still chilly. I remember wearing my ex-boyfriend's big aviators and my orange tights. I remember seeing the sun dip below the horizon and I remember being content in a profound way. And I remember my grandma's smile.
The next day was Easter, and that was wonderful too. My aunt Laura has us over and gave everyone Easter baskets. The one she gave me had almond butter in it. I remember that because I dropped it on my linoleum floor a few days after I got home and Ben made about a million jokes about it (like, "You know what kind of food I like?" "What?" "The kind without broken glass in it." Which was hilarious when we were trying to get to know each other). At Easter dinner my grandma sat with Laura's grandma and they got to talking. When it was time to go home, Laura's grandma said to mine, "I love you." My grandma replied with, "I love you too!" I thought it was so cute that I actually burst into tears on the spot and had to finish crying in the bathroom out of sight (remember that, Sam?).
I could go on about April of 2012 for a really long time, but I'll just end things here. I'll end things by saying that this is the first time I've written about my grandma since she died that I haven't cried. This time all I could feel were happy memories of a weekend that I hope I'll remember for the rest of my life. This April things are a little less certain. My grandma is gone. There will be no birthday party. Ben and I are apart. But the weather is getting warmer, the sun is setting later, and I think that things are going to be okay.